Love Of My Life. I am drinking at 7:55 In the morning because Im so stressed out, I love you so much that nobody in the world could understand. Tears run down my face as I write this I always wanted to be the one to make you happy, take care of you, be the one you could turn to when youre down and out like you were for me when I found out I lost my stepmom and my baby sister in something that could of been prevented and I will always I swear to God Remember everything we’ve been through I hope that one day that we can be everything we wanted to be. I wantd to make you my wife I swear to God I wanted to make you my wife and I still Do but until you are available to do that I cant do this always hiding and keeping secrets, Ive done that all my life and I cant do that anymore. This “situation” requires so much tht I have no control over I lay at night and I think About it Only if you Knew the tears I cried for you I always just wanted to be so hap[py but I cant do this anymore not to you, not to Luis, to the kids, not to you, not not me its so much to try and take in but it was so much I was willing to take in because I wanted you. You’re my everything especially as my friend first. I love you so much and nothing I do will never ever take that away from me. But right now theres no plce for me for what I want to be for you. When we can make this a legit love just us 4 please Know Ive Been waiting, and I always will be so know Im waiting on your decision but I wont be in the middle anymore either it is or not but I need you to let me know. I love you girl, and when youre ready to make this work right you know where I am, until then I cant do anymore than just our friendship which I hope is enough to keep you in my life. Btw that incident with the phone I swear was just your birthday cake in the shape of a playboy bunny I might as well tell you since you dont believe me and you probably dont want it now anyway. Ariel is would never be someone that would take the place for you hell if you want you can go on fb and look her up: Ariel Cotton. She does a catering business and she was willing to help me make your 25th special PSTT. But hopefully we get to talk later since your cell all of a sudden doesnt take my calls. Love you ttyl.